I have been struggling. I am not sleeping. I am lost in a world that reigns with no schedules, no organization, cranky kids and a meal plan down the drain.
I seem so put together most of the time on the outside, but I am having some breakdowns and my kids are struggling as well.
SO............
I am going to change this. But only one thing at a time. I am starting with bedtimes.
I had a lovely lunch with my oldest child, which knows me very well, to discuss our issues and what we can do about them. We are starting with a nice bed time routine. I had a strict bed time routine when the boys were little. I have lost that. Of course, back then, they were my focus. I am afraid to say that Molly is not. I have too many focuses. I talked earlier about your starfish. I know what mine is now.
I have three of them.
Nothing else can matter right now. I have a very important job of being a mom and wife. Those two things can change a family. And if more women focused on only those two things, it could change a nation. I know that men being dads and husbands make a difference, but I am a woman and thats all I can work on.
So, back to my routine. I called it the B routine.
Bath, bottle/breast, book, bed.
This is something I chanted in my head for years. Why have I let this go??? Poor kid just needs some routine to feel better. Atleast I hope so.
T also stated that they could help with clean up while I started Molly on her routine and then I could develop a routine with them as well. That's all kids really want isn't it. Time with us?
Tonight it starts. I will let you know what happens.
Next - stopping a midnight feeding.......